Yes thismorning around about 5:40am, I awoke to what felt like someone in my house shaking my bed although, I heard stuff on my dresser moving too. I was shaking for about 5 seconds then I stopped for about 2 seconds and started shaking for about 5 more seconds then stopped completely. I immediatly turned on the tv and grabbed Mike's gun out of the closet. My first thought was that someone broke into my house and since I live in a bi-level house, when you walk fast or run, it shakes the floor a little. so I searched the whole house and found everything quiet and in place. Then I put the gun away and went and checked on Brandon. He was sound asleep in the same position he was in when I checked on him before I went to bed.
At about 6:00am they announced on the news..."this is breaking now and it sounds strange but we have reports that we just went through an earthquake" I freaked out and started crying (mostly relieved that I wasn't nuts or going through convultions) and called my mom immediatly (as quickly as my little trembling hands could go)
I guess I scared mom cause she said "what's wrong?" right away. I said "mom we just went through an earthquake!" she said" your kiddin!" i said "No I swear it felt just like it did when I was a kid"
When I was about 10 or 11 we lived in Germany, and we went through an earthquake there too. I think that one was stronger and lasted longer than this one but I felt the exact same way through both. I was in bed for both and thought the same exact thoughts someone got in the house and started shaking my bed while I was sleeping!
They said that the center of the earthquake was along the indiana/illinois/kentucky border. I have heard people as far south as Nashville felt it. We are about 200 miles away from where they say the center was.
Brandon slept through the whole thing. When I tried to explain what happened I said "Brandon you slept right through an earthquake!" and I started shaking to show him what an earthquake does and he just laughed. He is easily amused!
Friday, April 18, 2008
My husband part 2
So I talked to him after he wouldn't talk to me for like a day or so, and explained to him how selfish I thought all the things he wanted were. He told me "I didn't even think of those things that way" I then explained to him that I could get no joy out of a motor cycle or an ipod and hope that he wants to save his money for things for us to do together.
I bought my truck 2 weeks before we got married knowing that if we got a truck that it would have a backseat and be equipped for a carseat for any children that we have. I think about the future a lot. I also refuse to buy a car without 4 doors for the same reason. Our house, it's bigger than we need right now. What if we wanted to expand our family by a child or 2 more than we have? I wanted to have the room instead of saying "honey I'm pregnant, I guess we need to get a bigger house!"
I explained that I would like to do things as a family with him when he gets home and not worry about whether or not we had the money to do them. I will be paying off my truck here in a little while and I just want to put money away in case Mike doesn't get the best paying job when he gets done with Iraq and the army. And what if we have an unexpected setback...I just don't want to be asking anyone for the money!
I think he understands where I am coming from. I think we can actually go forward now. I am hoping and praying that now we can communicate about things easier and without getting angry at each other.
I bought my truck 2 weeks before we got married knowing that if we got a truck that it would have a backseat and be equipped for a carseat for any children that we have. I think about the future a lot. I also refuse to buy a car without 4 doors for the same reason. Our house, it's bigger than we need right now. What if we wanted to expand our family by a child or 2 more than we have? I wanted to have the room instead of saying "honey I'm pregnant, I guess we need to get a bigger house!"
I explained that I would like to do things as a family with him when he gets home and not worry about whether or not we had the money to do them. I will be paying off my truck here in a little while and I just want to put money away in case Mike doesn't get the best paying job when he gets done with Iraq and the army. And what if we have an unexpected setback...I just don't want to be asking anyone for the money!
I think he understands where I am coming from. I think we can actually go forward now. I am hoping and praying that now we can communicate about things easier and without getting angry at each other.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
My husband
My husband can be a very selfish person. I know that being in Iraq can make you forget that there is still a life going on back home especially when you left, you lived somewhere different than when you come home. We bought our house while Mike was in Iraq. Brandon was only 5 months old when Mike left for training last may. Things are much different for us here. Brandon is getting bigger and requires quite a bit more attention. He likes to do things that aren't so safe (typical).
So what does Mike call me about 4 in the morning Monday? "can I get an ipod?"
umm....ok first of all he's coming back to the us on april 30th so what the hell.
"I lost all the music off my laptop and wanted something to get it back on"
He had to send me his laptop to fix because it crashed or something. it was still under warranty so we got it fixed but in the meantime it has to start over fresh.
So as you can guess my answer was no. Well he was pissed and mean to me the rest of the conversation so I said "listen it's 4am and I will have to be up in a few hours with Brandon so if you are mad at me then I'll talk to you later."
Frankly I don't remember much more of the conversation because I was so tired. I was in one of those sleeps that you don't usually get. One of those really hard sleeps. I thought the phone was ringing in my dreams.
What I can't understand is when I try to explain to him my reasoning behind why I say no to the pointless, selfish things he wants, he gets pissed at me and thinks I am a bitch. The first pointless, selfish thing he wanted was a motorcycle....Can you picture that....I can't and won't. His reasoning for this was "It'll save money on gas" I just think they are dangerous and so did he until I guess he talked to somone that has one and decided that he wanted one.
He never wants anything that WE can use as a FAMILY. I rarely buy myself anything. Most of everything I buy I use for Brandon or work or something around the house. It upsets me that he wants things as if he's single.
Then I get to thinking..is there something wrong with me? I know I am not skinny anymore but I am by no means ready for gastric bypass either. I have changed since he's been gone but what do you expect? I have had to take over all the responsibilities...taking care of Brandon, cooking, cleaning, taking care of the cars, the dogs, the house....all of it..it's very hard and I am doing everything on my own. Don't get me wrong I love doing it all. I guess it gives me a sense of pride that I can do it.
We went to an FRG (family readiness group) meeting Sunday afternoon.
They talked about all the changes that the soldiers will have to go through when they get home but what about what me and Brandon have to go through?
I miss Michael terribly and want him home but for some reason a tiny piece of me thinks I am doing this good without him that he doesn't have to come home if he doesn't want to. I hope that I am not getting use to him being gone all the time. I love him so much and all I want is for us to be together again and to be a family. I don't want him to be so childish though. I want him to be a man. To be a good husband and a daddy. I want him to think of us first and make decisions to get things to make our house and our lives together better first before he thinks of just himself.
So what does Mike call me about 4 in the morning Monday? "can I get an ipod?"
umm....ok first of all he's coming back to the us on april 30th so what the hell.
"I lost all the music off my laptop and wanted something to get it back on"
He had to send me his laptop to fix because it crashed or something. it was still under warranty so we got it fixed but in the meantime it has to start over fresh.
So as you can guess my answer was no. Well he was pissed and mean to me the rest of the conversation so I said "listen it's 4am and I will have to be up in a few hours with Brandon so if you are mad at me then I'll talk to you later."
Frankly I don't remember much more of the conversation because I was so tired. I was in one of those sleeps that you don't usually get. One of those really hard sleeps. I thought the phone was ringing in my dreams.
What I can't understand is when I try to explain to him my reasoning behind why I say no to the pointless, selfish things he wants, he gets pissed at me and thinks I am a bitch. The first pointless, selfish thing he wanted was a motorcycle....Can you picture that....I can't and won't. His reasoning for this was "It'll save money on gas" I just think they are dangerous and so did he until I guess he talked to somone that has one and decided that he wanted one.
He never wants anything that WE can use as a FAMILY. I rarely buy myself anything. Most of everything I buy I use for Brandon or work or something around the house. It upsets me that he wants things as if he's single.
Then I get to thinking..is there something wrong with me? I know I am not skinny anymore but I am by no means ready for gastric bypass either. I have changed since he's been gone but what do you expect? I have had to take over all the responsibilities...taking care of Brandon, cooking, cleaning, taking care of the cars, the dogs, the house....all of it..it's very hard and I am doing everything on my own. Don't get me wrong I love doing it all. I guess it gives me a sense of pride that I can do it.
We went to an FRG (family readiness group) meeting Sunday afternoon.
They talked about all the changes that the soldiers will have to go through when they get home but what about what me and Brandon have to go through?
I miss Michael terribly and want him home but for some reason a tiny piece of me thinks I am doing this good without him that he doesn't have to come home if he doesn't want to. I hope that I am not getting use to him being gone all the time. I love him so much and all I want is for us to be together again and to be a family. I don't want him to be so childish though. I want him to be a man. To be a good husband and a daddy. I want him to think of us first and make decisions to get things to make our house and our lives together better first before he thinks of just himself.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Recent events in Cincinnati
Ok recently here in Colerain township where I live, there were 2 firefighters killed in the line of duty. There was an article posted on the wcpo website
http://www.wcpo.com (i can't figure out how to link it so you can just click on it)
(local news station) about how the firefighters died. This paragraph in particular stirred a couple of emotions inside me...
" During Wednesday's emotional funeral service, Glendale Fire Chief Mike Finney suggested that citizens stop by their local firehouse and tell the firefighters on duty how much their service is appreciated."
Now my initial reaction was ok now I feel bad for the firefighters that lost their lives, however there are tons of people doing lots of different jobs that make them heroes. That doesn't mean I am going go to their individual workplaces to thank them for doing their jobs.
My next reaction was that the whole thing is really being blown out of proportion. I mean like I said I feel bad for the firefighters that lost their lives, however I nor anyone else, forced them to do the job they are doing. They know doing the job they do that there is a TON of risk involved. That's the horrible reality of being a firefighter or a police office or being a soldier. As much as it sounds very mean in print or coming out of someones mouth, it's the ugly truth.
Now I am very proud of every single person that makes a difference by doing the life saving but risky jobs they do, and I am extremely touched by the story of the firefighters. I am very appreciative of anyone that has improved my life or that may save my life or my family's life in the future should that be necessary. But the truth of the matter is, we should be thanking not just the firefighters but the doctors, the police, the soldiers, EMS and rescue squads, and nurses just to start!
My husband is a solider, a hero, a father, a son, a brother, an uncle and a friend. He has been deployed 4 times. He is currently deployed to Iraq for the 3rd time since 2002. I don't expect everyone to leave their house when he returns from Iraq to thank him for his service. When he is in public with his uniform on people will come up to him and thank him for his service. That makes him and me feel very proud..in fact I get teary. IF and WHEN I see anyone that is a hero to me, I do and will always thank them for their service. I know that it's a hard job not only on the individual but on the family as well.
So right now I would like to take this space to thank EVERY SINGLE person that makes a difference in this world. If you save some one's life, house, dog, or make some one's day, if you make someone laugh or just smile, then thank you cause you are a hero in my eyes!
If you get offended by what I say then I am sorry. This is only my opinion. Feel free to share how you feel.
http://www.wcpo.com (i can't figure out how to link it so you can just click on it)
(local news station) about how the firefighters died. This paragraph in particular stirred a couple of emotions inside me...
" During Wednesday's emotional funeral service, Glendale Fire Chief Mike Finney suggested that citizens stop by their local firehouse and tell the firefighters on duty how much their service is appreciated."
Now my initial reaction was ok now I feel bad for the firefighters that lost their lives, however there are tons of people doing lots of different jobs that make them heroes. That doesn't mean I am going go to their individual workplaces to thank them for doing their jobs.
My next reaction was that the whole thing is really being blown out of proportion. I mean like I said I feel bad for the firefighters that lost their lives, however I nor anyone else, forced them to do the job they are doing. They know doing the job they do that there is a TON of risk involved. That's the horrible reality of being a firefighter or a police office or being a soldier. As much as it sounds very mean in print or coming out of someones mouth, it's the ugly truth.
Now I am very proud of every single person that makes a difference by doing the life saving but risky jobs they do, and I am extremely touched by the story of the firefighters. I am very appreciative of anyone that has improved my life or that may save my life or my family's life in the future should that be necessary. But the truth of the matter is, we should be thanking not just the firefighters but the doctors, the police, the soldiers, EMS and rescue squads, and nurses just to start!
My husband is a solider, a hero, a father, a son, a brother, an uncle and a friend. He has been deployed 4 times. He is currently deployed to Iraq for the 3rd time since 2002. I don't expect everyone to leave their house when he returns from Iraq to thank him for his service. When he is in public with his uniform on people will come up to him and thank him for his service. That makes him and me feel very proud..in fact I get teary. IF and WHEN I see anyone that is a hero to me, I do and will always thank them for their service. I know that it's a hard job not only on the individual but on the family as well.
So right now I would like to take this space to thank EVERY SINGLE person that makes a difference in this world. If you save some one's life, house, dog, or make some one's day, if you make someone laugh or just smile, then thank you cause you are a hero in my eyes!
If you get offended by what I say then I am sorry. This is only my opinion. Feel free to share how you feel.
Friday, April 11, 2008
How is that Comfortable!?
Ok so after Brandon fell asleep last night I went into his room and snapped a few pics. Well this is how I found him.
He can not sleep without his "bye" which is his blanket..when I put it into his bed with him he curls up with it. I think part of it has to touch his face. Last night although the blanket is not touching his face in the pics, he still fell asleep and I just don't know how he slept like that and was comfortable.
He can not sleep without his "bye" which is his blanket..when I put it into his bed with him he curls up with it. I think part of it has to touch his face. Last night although the blanket is not touching his face in the pics, he still fell asleep and I just don't know how he slept like that and was comfortable.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Where a kid can be a kid!
Well we woke up about 730ish and started the day out about the same as any other day. Brandon wanted to eat his numa numa numa (banana) and his cereal bar and we watched some of The Upsidedown show.
This is where it starts to get a little out of the norm...
I let the dogs outside. When I went to let them back in, they were no where to be found. So I ran out the front door. Keep in mind that the dogs were outside for about 3 minutes 5 minutes tops. I looked over to the right side of my yard and my gate is wide open both dogs had gotten out! I found Blue really fast. He came right up to me. I had to get out the amunition for Angel (the treats) to get him to come to me. I found him playing with a dog behind our house. He pissed me off because he wouldn't come to me even though I told him I had a treat!
So right after that I smelt funky so I told Brandon that I was gonna take a shower. Well he loves the water coming out of the faucet and wanted to get in the tub so I said ok you take a shower with mommy. He whined the whole time until I turned the shower off and the water was coming out of the faucet again. He started playing with the water so I let the tub fill up and let him play for a little while and I got dressed.
After we were ready we were just about to head out the door but I wasn't sure where I wanted to go, when I decided to check the computer to see if daddy was online. He was so we talked for a little while and he talked me into taking Brandon to Chuck E. Cheese's.
It was a little after 11 so we went to Target first and I got him a bunch of stuff. 3 shirts, 5 little dinosaurs that roared (they were a buck each) and a little people school bus. He loves school buses. Every morning we watch the school buses go by our house. After that, we decided to go to Chuck E. Cheese's. We had a good time. We ordered a medium cheese pizza and $5 worth of tokens. He rode a few of the rides and went down the slide. Then I put him in the photo car.
After we ate I took Brandon over where they have the birthday parties and there was a party going on and the puppets were playing music. Brandon went up to the front of the stage and started dancing like crazy. It was so cute. After that we went over to the sketch booth and got 2 sketches made. The first he was very pissy in and the second he had calmed down a bit. He was tired!
So we had a great day. After we left Chuck E.'s we went back home and both of us took a nap. He slept from about 2 to 4:30ish and I slept from 3 to 430ish.
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